the final run

a lot of things happened today.

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it was the final run of dancenight!

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18 dummy is really catchy wow

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I wore this dark red checkered shirt which jheong said was an uncle shirt (for the third time, I think it’s the checkers)

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I stepped on a (female) bboy because it was completely dark at the backstage, which made me feel horrible and depressed for a while

then she danced fantastically so I forgot all about it

I’m still very sorry, whoever you are 🙁

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when I was watching jiansheng do his bboy part for the 5th consecutive time it finally hit me that he was no longer the gorillama I knew in sec 3 but an amazingly cool bboy (still very lame though)

weight loss gogogo!

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this female chinese dancer sprained her leg or something and was crying when she left the stage

I should’ve asked if she was okay instead of standing there 🙁

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I took a ton of photos with yuchuan’s dslr.

they all look fantastic. should’ve taken more.

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and I talked to her oh my god

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I’m so thankful I signed up to be in the backstage crew

it feels great when you see all the dancers cheer and scream and whoop and laugh after the curtain call

you get a million thanks while you busily vacuum the floor and open the curtains and get flowers and feel appreciated

all the cip hours are just… bloody meaningless numbers

although you’re not part of them, when you see that the event that they’ve all worked so hard for, that they’ve rehearsed thousands of times before, with their friends and on their own, just for the 3 shows which people will be clapping and just going “that was a good show” without really considering the effort put into the whole event for the past few months

when they pose as a group in front of a camera and grin widely while their faces glisten with the sweat of their hard work or something

when they furrow their brows in determination before entering the stage

when they all come together to put on the best show you’ve ever seen with your two eyes (because in this show you can actually empathise with them)

you truly yearn for something just as epic of your own, so that you can look back at the times and smile and say “that was a good show” and actually mean it

am I still waiting for that chance, or is it already here and I don’t know it?

only time can tell!