Very, very confused now, like some concussive grenade went off inside my head. Was reading a book (Ghost Watch by James Rollins, I swear he’s a legend) out of boredom and realised I wasn’t really reading the words, more like scanning through the pages.
Things are turning so… saccharine, it’s almost tearing my tender young virgin lonely single heart apart. I’m feeling less outcasted and more blessed, more happy, more content. Less of a lamppost than a child looking up in adoration.
All the best, you… adorable people. Haha.
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This question keeps coming up: Do you want a girlfriend? (YES I DO IGNORE THE REST OF THIS POST)
I’m not going to lie and say that I thought about it. I’ve never seen it as a question for me to answer (and I still don’t think it is) But now that I’ve thought about it- forget it, I don’t even have a pragmatic answer.
It’s something that’s popping up time and time again around me and on the train home I could see at least 4 couples at any time from my seat.
So no. I’m going gay or something I guess.
Blargh, feeling so uneasy about other stuff.
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My bloody earphones broke again. 9 days! How bloody fantastic.
My bathrobe was washed and is now being hung up to dry. I want to wrap it around myself and just drink some tea and huddle and stop sniffling so damn much blah.
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What I’m Looking For – Brendan Benson
Well I don’t know what I’m looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
And I won’t be satisfied
‘Till there’s nothing left that I haven’t tried
For some people it’s an easy choice
But for me there’s a devil and an angel’s voice
Well I don’t know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
Well I don’t know what I’m living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more
And you hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies, love never ends
Now I don’t wanna argue, no I don’t wanna fight
‘Cause you’re always wrong and I’m always right
Well I don’t know what I am living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more
I used to be involved, and I felt like a king
Now I’ve lost it all and I don’t feel a thing
I may never grow old, I may never give in
And I’ll blame this world that I live in
I visit hell on a daily basis
I see the sadness in all your faces
I’ve got friends who have married
And their lives seem complete
Here I am still stumbling down a darkened street
And I act like a child and I’m insecure
And I’m filled with doubt and I’m immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me and before I know it
I’m lost at sea
But no matter how far I row
I always find my way back home
But I don’t know what I’ve been waiting for
But I know that I don’t wanna wait anymore
Looking for…
What I’m looking for…
Looking for…
What I’m looking for…
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What I’m looking for…
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What I’m looking for…
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What I’m looking for…
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