So that was inSYNC. I don’t have the right to say or judge anything about this event given that my duties entailed entering the school after noon and taking photos and delivering Koi (which is overrated! I mean the Koi, not the delivery of Koi. Also, 9 cups are pretty heavy)
It’s like a spin-off of See², much like how a documentary of my life would be a spin-off of a documentary of yours. It’s interesting, but you probably don’t think that my life is as important as yours.
The proposals seem way more… To put it nicely, basic, but three days just isn’t enough for a bunch of kids without experience to suddenly learn how to think critically, in the way that plugs up loopholes and incites awe. So they had loopholes and didn’t impress me.
I got to re-meet people whom I’ve met two years ago, one year ago… It’s really really wonderful to have all these juniors come up, extend their arms and yell my name out in glee (rare that anyone uses this word). Everyone likes me! Yay! It feels pretty good.
They’re all great people, but inSync and See²… These things are over for an indefinite period of time. That’s another story for another day.
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Recently, I’ve been hooked up on the idea on what makes me happy. Material comforts aren’t enough any more.
What makes me glad are special moments.
The moments when I am able to connect to people on a level way higher than simply understanding and communicating; when the people I am working, playing or just hanging out with are able to connect, sympathise, laugh, mope and all of that with me with near-perfect synchronicity. I like being part of something and being a vital cog in an ever-moving machine of all that good stuff.
Maybe I am too socially pessimistic.
I’m just really glad when people want me around. Doesn’t take much else to cheer me up. But it doesn’t take me much to become unhappy either.
And this is why I think I’m too clingy to people nowadays. The lack of any form of social contact means that I lack such a response. I get lonely often. I value friendships a ton.
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If it takes more for me to be happy now, does it mean that I’ve become more mature or childish?
I guess that’s the next big question for me.
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