minddump

I don’t know why but I’m staying up to say this but:

I want an electric guitar to make some damn music

I want to form a band to play BRODYQUEST using unusual instruments

like the kazoo and trombone and synthesiser and drums and guitar all together

but I don’t know anyone who’d go up to me and say “that is a wonderful idea”, I hope I’m wrong

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I want to stop being so paranoid and enjoy life as it is!

I want to make people happy

I want a polaroid to capture spontaneous happy memories to hand out to everyone

I want to do something big, to return to society:

not CIP there’s too much of that existing already, I want to organise an event for the school

a rave, maybe? we need more raves

not like that 15 second weenie of a dance at gladiator (ha)

last 2 years of actual school for everyone

better make it significant!

I want it to be memorable!

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I don’t want to sound like I’m asking too much

I probably like dancing so much because of repressed childhood memories in P1 and P2 where they told tricked me into joining Chinese Dance when they told me it was chapteh training

those were fun memories!

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I want to impress everyone

I want to stop taking insults so badly

I have a lot more self confidence now!

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All I want is really to be me!

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okay I have lessons until 9pm today so good riddance