I had this great sense of despair all of a sudden and I do not know why… My Project Work group’s utterly fucked and my Chinese is fucking shit; I need to talk to someone about this but I don’t want to annoy anyone for no rhyme or reason; I’m shivering in my seat although I’m sweating like mad; my heart is wrenching itself in my chest.
I’m afraid. Afraid that I’m already annoying people with these minuscule pittances. Afraid that people are making use of my insecurities. Afraid of back-biters. Afraid of being made use of. Afraid of being a total tool in this “plan” of his.
I don’t know if I can trust anyone any more.
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