Prioritizing.

I’m having major, and I mean MAJOR mood swings. Like, if you charted it on a graph it’d be like a tangent graph from negative half-pi to positive half-pi, only that positive means that I’m happy and negative means the world’s gonna blow.

One moment I’d be laughing and the next I’d be so depressed and down and like the world’s been cast upon my shoulders. It’s pathetic in the sense that because I’m a dude I’m not allowed to do that. One moment I’m pissed and the next I’m forgiving and smiling.

Blocks are in 2 days, I’m pretty much effed for blocks, and this isn’t helping at ALL. I need some fresh air and something to punch, but those will take my time off from studying which is a completely justifiable excuse for not exercising. (89.4 now, I’ve seen some improvement)

Also the fact that my self-esteem’s been in the dumps doesn’t help either.

Like “woah did I tell you that I mean I only told my closest friends” BAM RIGHT IN THE GUT. First, you told me “that thing” at the start of the year and second, I’ve known you rather closely for the past 5 years, and wait what is this I’m unimportant? Thanks.

Wow. Jeez. Damn.

I have to think carefully before I say anything because things like that have the potential to ram a guy’s ego into the gutter.

Not like I’ve done anything to offend him. But I’ve learnt something, so thanks, anon.

Goddamnit the only past I have to think of now is my PAST RESULTS and my PAST TOPICS FOR PHYSICS, COMPUTING, MATHS AND ECONS.

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This song makes me a bit happy, because it’s all groovy. Also the people dancing are wearing cool art stuff so I’m like artsy for watching it.

I suppose the video cams are there to represent the points of view for the different girls. At the start, their movements are robotic, somewhat “military” in the sense that they’re unfeeling and don’t really care how they make a boy feel. When the scene turns crimson and the video cams start panning across their legs, it’s depicting how men often only view women as sexual objects. When the colourful robes come on -this is somewhat tricky- their movements seem much more elegant which is trying to tell us that there’s more than one dimension to this matter, that girls do have a wide range of feelings and that boys never care how girls feel?

Wow…

When you’re analysing music videos at midnight… something tells me it’s time to sleep.

EDIT: Okay I just read that they played the percussion using human bones

what, why, paul, why

No You Girls – Franz Ferdinand

Oh, kiss me
Lick your cigarette then kiss me
Kiss me where your eye won’t meet me
Meet me where your mind won’t kiss me

Lick your eyes and mine and then hit me
Hit me with your eyes so sweetly
Oh, you know, you know, you know that, yes, I love
I mean I’d love to get to know you

Do you never wonder?
No, no, no, no

You girls never know, oh, no, you girls will never know
No, you girls never know how you make a boy feel
You girls never know, oh, no, you girls will never know
No, you girls never know how you make a boy feel
How you make a boy

Oh, kiss me
Lick your cigarette and then kiss me
Kiss me where your eye won’t meet me
Meet me where your eye won’t lick me

Lick your mind and mine so briefly
Oh, you know, you know you’re so sweetly
Oh, you know, you know, I know that I love you
I mean I, I mean I need to love

Do you never wonder?
No, no, no, no

You girls never know, oh, no, you girls will never know
No, you girls never know how you make a boy feel
You girls never know, oh, no, you girls will never know
No, you girls never know how you make a boy feel
How you make a boy feel, how you make a boy

Sometimes I say stupid things that I think
Well, I mean, I, sometimes I think the stupidest things
Because I never wonder how the girl feels
Oh, how the girl feels

No, you boys never care, oh, no, you boys will never care
No, you boys never care, how the girl feels
You boys never care, you dirty boys will never care
No, you boys never care, how the girl feels
Oh, how the girl feels, oh, how the girl feels