Category: General

Or something to that effect.

Today was unproductive as usual, but it was slightly fun because I played Bioshock.

Okay I’m betting Chuan. The first to get a girlfriend wins a hundred dollars.

THINGS ARE NOT LOOKING GOOD. THIS IDIOT IS TAUNTING ME RIGHT HERE.

Protagonist: anyway yes
Protagonist: your singlehood
Protagonist: your bachelorhood
Protagonist: your undying affair with Rosie Palms
Protagonist: okay I’ll stop with the synonyms
Protagonist: mostly because I’ve run out
Protagonist: but also because they’re terrible
rather fancy medic: OH GOD DAMN YOU

And after a series of conversations on Twitter, Steam and Facebook, we’ve settled the rules.

First to touch first base (or in the words of the British, snog) wins a hundred dollars. Cash.

The funny thing is that all this social networking’s gonna really screw up our reputation. He’s already got a target that he’s falling heads over heels for while…

…I’m still lovelorn and well “aimless”. HAHA. I’m not objectifying females. They’re lovely people. Wonderful people. Oh god what did I just say. It’s just a for fun thing. I’m not going to force myself to get a girlfriend either. I’ll just wait and see what happens, see if anyone is blind enough to like me.

O-okay I was just reminded of how alone I am.

Winning this bet isn’t really about the money. It’s more of the pride, you know? The winner’s a player, a baller, one who is way more successful than the other.

I just hope neither of us tries, or else it’s gonna end up with real bad repercussions (“OUR RELATIONSHIP’S A GODDAMN BET?!” etc)

I couldn’t care less about the bet! But it’s goddamn interesting and I’d gladly give up the money if he wins.

Haha, who am I kidding? I’ve already prepared the money for him.

[JEEZ MAN HOW DO I POST MEANINGFUL HAPPY BIRTHDAY MESSAGES WITHOUT COMING OFF AS CREEPY GODDAMN]

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Now playing: The National – Exile, Vilify
via FoxyTunes

“Also, another very useful tidbit: going to bed earlier is much more useful than sleeping longer. You’re much better off sleeping 11PM->6AM than you are sleeping 12AM->8AM. I know it’s easy to keep saying “just one more game!” until suddenly, it’s 3 in the morning, but if you just try the whole “early to bed, early to rise” thing, you’ll quickly discover that playing video games first thing in the morning is just as fun as playing them super late at night.” – Link

Wanted to write something super long but eh, not in the mood.

Big whoop, my graphics card driver crashed and now I can concentrate on stuff instead of staying on TF2.

Notes are strewn across the entire table, a weak looking moth is flying around the room and the air smells of the sea, strangely, with the tangy saltiness that’s a little pungent but welcome. Looks like it might rain tonight. The pocketwatch is 3 hours behind time, because I was late in winding it a few days ago. There’re some shiny things in the distance.

Anyway.

Exams ended yesterday. Computing was fantastically fun. I had my head down and when I looked up 2 hours were gone already.

So we decided to head over to J8 to catch a movie. We watched Real Steel. Stellar acting but every character seemed rather shallow. Everything was spread too thin I think.

So today. What about today.

Today was damn bloody boring, that’s what. Although I was kept “entertained” the whole time by playing games, which I longed to do during the entire exam period, I didn’t really enjoy it a lot. On Twitter, Facebook, you see people announcing to the world about how much fun they’re having with friends, hanging out and watching movies. While I’ve been sitting on my ass for the past 14 hours. (WAIT WHAT OH MY GOD WTF 14 HOURS D: ) Deus Ex, Battlefield 3, TF2 oh god I need some time out from the computer hex firstworldproblems hurrrr hurrrrr.

Needless to say I felt pretty damn unimportant and useless. Boohoo no one wants me and I’m pretty damn alone I’m permanently in the temporary alone club forever alone www. I used to think I got over that but I didn’t.

There were some highlights like Kenneth calling for a short chat about what to do with his laptop, which hard drive broke down (he ended up buying a new hard drive although I told him to try and ask for support). I felt very special then. Look at me, a person worthy of calling when your laptop is down!

But if you have to have someone call you in order to let you feel good about yourself then you’re pretty worthless.

Sometimes I want to have someone there for me when I need some company, you know? Like some people I know. Soooome people. Soooooooooome people. Not saying who. But there are some. They exist.

Nonono I don’t really mean a girlfriend (maybe) but I don’t know maybe a dog or a cat. A cat. A kitten. Yes a kitten would be fantastic. But my mom is allergic to fur. 🙁

I am so shitty.

Welp. So I decided to make a platformer using Flash! (in order to distract myself from the prospect of wanting a gir- I mean companion)

Here’s an (read: the only) art asset (crappy animation)!

Yeah he looks like he’s limping and there’s something weird about this right arm when he pulls it backwards, and his torso and the way he tilts his neck. I’m working on it sheesh.

Hey, look it’s about to rain! Big winds!

HUGE WINDS! THUNDER! LIGHTNING! RRRAIN FOR THE RAIN GODDDDD

It’s pretty cool to see the lights in the distance growing blurrier as the clouds of impending doom and fluids arrive. I can wear my bathrobe because it’s cold yay.

Okay well I can feel gastric incoming so let’s see if tomorrow can get any worse.

Of course I screwed up math rather horribly despite having studied for it the whole previous day. Must’ve skipped at least 4 entire questions. Not sure if it’s a blessing to have had my question booklet mistakenly taken away by someone else though.

The only consolation I’ll get is that I get a chance to not screw up during the next test, which is BT2, which I probably will screw up anyway.

Excuses. Damn bloody excuses. It’s always “I’ll study tomorrow” or “I’ll do better next time” or “I’ll study Physics on the bus”.

Although everyone thought that math was pretty killer, I personally didn’t see anything too difficult with it. Yes I skipped questions but that was because I was clueless. I didn’t practice enough, and my handsome reward would be a big happy S or U and most likely no scholarship at all.

I don’t even feel worried over this because it’s over. It’s done. I can’t ever go back in time to punch some sense into my past self. Everyone’s hoping for moderation but I don’t think it’s possible. I’m actually rather happy now that it’s over and done with.

Colour me pessimistic but the only person we can blame is the one reading this right now.

No, not me, you idiot.

BUT if you didn’t actually screw up or if those comments above were made in jest then oops disregard this post.

In other news I am rather pissed with myself now.

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The above was written at 5:30pm. I haven’t studied anything beyond Oscillations yet. I am so damn frickin’ screwed.

Today was utterly terrible.

Slept at 3AM for no damn reason and woke at 4:40AM because it rained. Listened to thunder claps for a while before I dozed off again, and woke up at my 7:30 alarm. Sent some SMSes of goodwill, set the alarm to 8:30AM and went back to sleep.

For some damn reason the alarm DID NOT SOUND and I slept until 10:30 which meant that essentially the entire morning was gone.

I got distracted by Battlefield 3 until 2:30PM which was BAD. I mean, I could essentially have some exams in the morning, come back home and still have time to take a quick nap before I started on revision.

In addition to not having anything much done other than integration which I still do not understand all that much. It was really goddamn terrible the entire afternoon with this huge uneasiness constricting on my chest. Like I wanted to beat the hell out of something, but I was too lazy to go out and run. Besides, there’s a frickin’ exam tomorrow and the last thing I need is for my (socially-unaccepted) emotions to make me all pissed off and give up on everything. So I ended up venting my anger on a series of integration questions.

I haven’t revised for Physics either and I should, or else those scholarships will be out of my reach.

11:11 I wish I didn’t give a shit about everything non-school related, just like I wouldn’t have a bloody year ago.

Edit:

Now that we’ve gotten the symbolic 11:11 thing out of the way.

The uneasiness. I don’t know, it’s some form of restlessness that I can’t describe. Everything from Facebook statuses (actually MOSTLY Facebook statuses) to the clutter on your desk just… irks you so badly. The fact that I haven’t done Sequences and Series or Vectors or Physics really doesn’t help at all. It’s just all so absolutely goddamn depressing and I don’t know why. Is there a male form of PMS because if there is then I HAVE IT. RIGHT NOW.

At least I got the GPP off to Malcolm, which made me feel slightly better.

BUT STILL.

I’m going to study till I remember everything about Vectors. Not too sure about sequences and series, I don’t recall having difficulties with it because I copied everything off the board.

Turns out that econs was indeed rather managable if I decided to study for it instead of whining that it was impossible to get anything above a “U”.

Which led to a whole lot of conceptual fuck-ups which were a damn shame to throw away.

My mind was occupied during the whole of the exam with dubstep and various other things for no apparent reason which led to me staring blankly at the wall quite a few times.

The only good thing is that I have the whole of tomorrow to sort out Math and Physics.

People keep saying I should have more confidence in myself.

Blah.

Spent a day somewhat alone without touching the computer. BUT I TOUCHED MY IPOD TOUCH! WHAT BLASPHEMY!

I got loads of things done. Including math, math and math.

Went to cycle! My groin is now in a pulp.

I cycled behind this kid and he thought I was trying to race him, so I tailed him at top speed for half the park and I must’ve looked like a rapist.

That’s one thing off my bucketlist I guess.

🙁

Looking forward to Wednesday OH I can’t wait.

I did feel a bit lonely (dependencies tsk) but the pocket watch is a nice thing to remember fondly about fond memories.

Just joking. I sat at the computer with a pen in my mouth for 4 hours straight.

I’m gonna go sleep now.

OTHER POTENTIAL TITLES FOR THIS POST: [✔] Looking like a rapist

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–AND NOW, FUNNY CONVERSATION–

get your priorities straight

Me:

@*(#$ I want my scholarships

Darryl:

oh you’re one of those overachieving science types

alright then mr “good grades” and “bright future”

Sent my laptop for servicing because of a borked keyboard that can’t type backspace, “O”, “I” or “9”.

Which means that I have no computer to work with. Which means that I can finally get started on revision!

😀

On the other hand I’ll be nigh impossible to contact other than via Twitter or Facebook or SMS so if a chat is desired just drop me a line and I’ll wrestle my brother off the desktop.

Okay time to start on math.