Category: General

7:48AM now!

we came over from Fremont so now we’re in the big beautiful city of san francisco!

so last night I went over to rayyan’s room to lend them my laptop for gaming and I sat at the side and did a bit of physics

I got tired so I tried to sleep for a bit at 1AM

ended up waking at 3AM and talking a bit with them

then I went back to sleep

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the first wake up call rang in my dreams

I dreamt that I was having a lecture in the lecture theater and was looking around at everyone I knew

then I left the theater and heard a ringing which was when my ears ignored it

then I woke up and looked about

and put my head back in the pillow

then it rang again and I realised

I woke up and looked at everyone and made a bit of sound before realising it was futile

so I left with my laptop and all my notes

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and here I am, with my legs propped up against the heater and stoning

argh we only have 30 minutes left so I don’t know why derek and yuchuan are sleeping

heading to stanford later! don’t worry about me, mom and dad!

I am in my bed writing this post on my ipod. it’s 4:30am in america but I slept at 10 so i am not that tired now.
Derek is at the table doing his work and leaving Skype on to talk to his brother while rayyan and yuchuan are sleeping.
Yesterday we went to HP labs in the morning which was very interesting! It had cool stuff like F1 simulators and looked like where a dream job would be!
For lunch we went to a restaurant called Hunan garden. the chopstick wrapper had instructions on it, damn funny.
In the afternoon we visited iDA Singapore USA and the startup companies are very cool. the founders of cooliris were there too!
after that we went to walmart. I wanted to buy pepsi at the vending machine but a homeless guy told me not to. what a strange country. Derek and I went to gamestop to play wwe all-stars haha it was damn funny.
rayyan just turned over and continued sleeping haha
there was wifi almost everywhere so luckily I could use foursquare to check in places so that my parents can know where I went. too lazy to figure out how to call home haha
for dinner we went to sizzers which looked very like American diners you see in movies and dramas! I couldn’t help but point out every classical American place and object I saw. but everything is so heaty. I didn’t even eat the fries because I was very dehydrated.
I miss Singapore now! we are going on tours around San Francisco later in the afternoon. I hope I don’t get pickpocketed!
ohh and even though I lost my pencil box I still have my GC with me! damn lucky right.
don’t worry dad I will be back in one piece!
okay going to study Math bye.

um my laptop is broken so my ‘o’ and ” keys are jammed so forgive me if my spelling is fail

i’m in my hotel room in san francisco.

didn’t study anything  at all on the plane! didn’t even manage to sleep for more than 1 hour. felt really unwell for a while but recovered quickly :D.

watched rango on the plane. it was one of the funniest and best movies i ever saw.

then we arrived in korea

how i met your mother was very funny!

lost my pencil case on the plane :(:(:(

we headed off to the california academy of science whch was rather boring because they didn’t have anything much to see except for a rainforest section which felt just as humid and hot as singapore was

we then went to hard rock cafe. food was rather bad but i wasn’t used to it anyway

america’s very underwhelming. half of the people we’ve seen here are asians and i don’t see any white people around. must be all the influence i had from the internet and pop culture. hope it’ll get more exciting soon.

we went to wal-mart and it was very big but empty and the stuff was damn cheap. bought marshmallows but got sian of it.

yuchuan’s watchng fox news now haha it’s so dumb

more tomorrow!

i’m going to the US tomorrow at 7AM with rayyan yuchuan and derek!

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i will have fun

i will revise physics and maths at night and on the plane

super junior is amazing what have i been doing for the past 2 years not watching sorry, sorry

i will take a lot of photos of derek yuchuan and rayyan being knocked out on the first day

i will try my best to defeat jet-lag

i will wake up at 6AM daily

i will feel very tired

if i wake up earlier than yuchuan, i will squeeze toothpaste on his finger and tickle his nose so that he will rub it all over his face

if i don’t wake up that early i will groan and refuse to wake up

i will go out for a morning walk every morning

i will have heart-to-heart talks with the others

i am very afraid of muggers and rapists on the streets

i don’t think we are close to attractive enough though haha

i will come back from the walk and have a bath

after every bath I will wear a bathrobe and wander around to annoy yuchuan

i will head down to breakfast and eat a whole lot so that i’ll be happy

when we go to the companies I will take a lot of photos

or listen attentively

or talk to rayyan yuchuan and derek a lot

i will take a short video at the hotel room every day to show what we’re doing

i will make the most of my time at the US and it’s going to be fun

i will only go on the wooden coasters at six flags because I cannot take going more than 20 degrees

i have bathophobia and i am extremely fearful of falling so i will not go on coasters that do loops

i will come back and try to mug for econs and computing too

i will be bored on the 10 hour plane ride but i think it’s going to be worth it 🙂

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i will have fun!

what am I doing with my life.
I was lying down in bed and thinking about everything when I suddenly got damn scared. Realized I didn’t revise at all for blocks. Physics, Computing, Maths, Econs, GP and PW, all untouched. It’s going to be impossible to study for everything. But I have to try. Or else I will end up not being able to answer half the questions on the test paper.
Suddenly I don’t want to go sv anymore. So what if I got first prize, retaking J1 is not a fair trade. I doubt I will get anything done at all there.
I think I have super lousy study habits. 混日子all the way since primary 3.
无论尽多少能力，就是读不进脑子。
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My mom just came out of the room and told me that if I was worried I would ignore sleep for the next 2 days to 赶工, if not I’m not worried at all. I want to move out and live on my own. I’m panicking and all she’s trying to do is to 火上加油. She has my interests at heart but what I need most now is encouragement and not a scolding.
Am I studying for myself or my pride or for my friends or for my parents? I really don’t know anymore.
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亡羊补牢，未为迟也！
I must give up everything else, there is no more time for fun!!
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It is 3AM again. I hope I don’t get used to sleeping at this horrible time. It’s not even the proper time for me to sleep to avoid jet lag.

today I slept at 3 after writing the last blog post. I set my alarm to ring at 11, which was when yuchuan smsed me. I replied and turned over to sleep. then i woke up at 4:30. so pissed arghhhh.

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today was fun fun fun fun!

started at 5:30 when my alarm rang which I forgot to turn off the night before. so I woke up and tossed around and set it to snooze for a few moments, then I finally set it to dismiss and I slept until 7. my mum and I headed down to mapletree business city which was some super fancy place! the seminar room had a mike for every person and it’s cool as hell with all the glass and stuff.

all I can say is that it’s super super packed and fun ahhh I can’t WAIT 😀 I do hope we get the room with the wifi because then we can stop the others from using our wifi while we surf all night 8D but it’s probably going to be used by the teachers bah

I’m quite uncomfortable with the idea of going to six flags, I don’t know why but amusement parks seem so scary to me 🙁 maybe it’ll be cool enough to change my mind?

my only other worry is that we don’t have enough time to order all the stuff people requested before we move hotels 🙁

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mr. yong sent us back to lab 5 directly in his car (thanks so muchhh) and we managed to arrive during the facilitators’ discussion which I did not understand anything about. so I stoned around and watched Exam with yuchuan while the other people from the OT went to buy KFC. I only watched the movie because yuchuan promised to walk with me to the class bench later. but I got word that the person I wanted to look for went overseas. but it was a nice movie (I kept asking yuchuan questions because it was so full of suspense)

I pleaded with rayyan and he allowed me to go to starbucks to look for marie mingkang and shungit who were having a study session. marie’s brother managed to get her a bottle of long island iced tea so they gave me the remainder (1/6 of a bottle) to take back to school (thanks :D)

then we set up chairs and stuff for human foosball which everyone was really afraid of getting found out. we didn’t so it was good.

we went for dinner at just-acia in marina square! I’m so thankful that marie mingkang shungit and yiren went with us too because at least I had people to talk to. then edmund started to play those games where he points in random directions and asks a question and we’re supposed to answer after noticing the pattern.

I really like those because they challenge your mind and make you feel great when you find out what it is

and I camwhored with nicholas a lot haha.

bah I wanted to go play pool with them but the artclubbers were leaving so 🙁

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artemis’s fac dance is so interestingly fun haha

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was a bit annoyed at someone today. he kept being childish and insulting my weight. I think he’s the only person doing this now; ignoring him seemed to do the trick.

why do such people exist I hate it.

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and wow I managed to find out something all by myself and I’m feeling like such a super sleuth 😀

shit it’s 2AM again but other peoples’ blogs are so cuuuuuuuuuuuuute and interesting.

one day I’m going to wake up at 5AM and go to the beach to watch the sunrise and just forget about all my troubles for a few hours. that would be awesome.

one day I’m going to go out and just trek around urban areas with a friend or two. just chatting and talking about life while doing so. no pool, no bowling, just some random urban exploration. sounds fun.

I don’t know why but I have been so busy that I have been sleeping at 2-4AM for the entire past week which is terrifying.

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a lot of things happened today.

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it was the final run of dancenight!

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18 dummy is really catchy wow

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I wore this dark red checkered shirt which jheong said was an uncle shirt (for the third time, I think it’s the checkers)

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I stepped on a (female) bboy because it was completely dark at the backstage, which made me feel horrible and depressed for a while

then she danced fantastically so I forgot all about it

I’m still very sorry, whoever you are 🙁

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when I was watching jiansheng do his bboy part for the 5th consecutive time it finally hit me that he was no longer the gorillama I knew in sec 3 but an amazingly cool bboy (still very lame though)

weight loss gogogo!

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this female chinese dancer sprained her leg or something and was crying when she left the stage

I should’ve asked if she was okay instead of standing there 🙁

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I took a ton of photos with yuchuan’s dslr.

they all look fantastic. should’ve taken more.

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and I talked to her oh my god

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I’m so thankful I signed up to be in the backstage crew

it feels great when you see all the dancers cheer and scream and whoop and laugh after the curtain call

you get a million thanks while you busily vacuum the floor and open the curtains and get flowers and feel appreciated

all the cip hours are just… bloody meaningless numbers

although you’re not part of them, when you see that the event that they’ve all worked so hard for, that they’ve rehearsed thousands of times before, with their friends and on their own, just for the 3 shows which people will be clapping and just going “that was a good show” without really considering the effort put into the whole event for the past few months

when they pose as a group in front of a camera and grin widely while their faces glisten with the sweat of their hard work or something

when they furrow their brows in determination before entering the stage

when they all come together to put on the best show you’ve ever seen with your two eyes (because in this show you can actually empathise with them)

you truly yearn for something just as epic of your own, so that you can look back at the times and smile and say “that was a good show” and actually mean it

am I still waiting for that chance, or is it already here and I don’t know it?

only time can tell!