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  • the soutien de caractère

    I’ve spent my whole afternoon trying to convince you and goddamnit why won’t you listen?

    I have never insisted and tried to convince someone for such a long time.

    Mostly because I’m horribly ambivalent about everything. For years upon years, I’ve been “too nice” to criticise my acquaintances. I’ve been afraid to approach foreigners for the fear of sounding incompetent. I’ve been afraid to raise suggestions, and when I do I always get shot down. I follow people around all the time, and not the other way. I’ve never really held strong opinions for years for the fear of being proven wrong.

    And I’ve failed to convince anyone yet again.

    I can’t care less any more.

  • the study date

    We had a study date today.

    It sucked because I was playing Tiny Tower the whole time while not doing my maths.

    We headed over to Kang’s house after lunch and played a bit of darts and studied a bit. Then we went in and lazed around until dinnertime, after which we watched the Simpsons.

    But the most memorable part was when we were on the swing at night.

    It was a time when we forgot about every piece of work and every worry and we all just sat on the swing. Almost idyllic.

    Reading The Judas Strain by James Rollin! Haha, I’m too paranoid for my own good 🙂

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  • the case of pessimism and humanities

    New phrasal verb!

    hang-up [n.] \hăng’ŭp’\- an emotional problem or inhibition

    It doesn’t mean “put handset back”!

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    Jheong was eating all the time, like 3 small buns and a pau which was worryingly hilarious. She was eating throughout PW and Physics wtf.

    Now’s she’s having a food coma on prettyfoods.tumblr.com wtffff

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    Strahan and Bryan were the emcees for humanities week and their costumes were damn LOL. Strahan brought a ten-gallon and two fedoras for himself and this ridiculous snowman hat for Bryan. In the end he was some pseudo-cowboy person while Bryan was a jester. I don’t think anyone got the idea that they were supposed to reflect the carnival theme haha.

    I wanted to be an emcee too but I didn’t say anything when Ms Tan asked for volunteers. I should be more proactive next time!

    I think it was because I want attention.

    There’s nothing wrong with seeking attention, but when you overdo it, it becomes obvious and people tend to notice. Sometimes I wonder if people judge me 🙁

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    After Econs we went down to the level 1 consulting area for Econs remedial. Ms Tan came down quite quickly, brandishing a cup of cup noodles and another of Starbucks which smelt quite good. She didn’t eat anything other than “3 tiny muffins” for breakfast, and was almost going to faint. Kinda respectable! She also didn’t get angry although we didn’t really do what she asked us to so I’m feeling a bit guilty for that.

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    We Are Scientists never fails to cheer me up 🙂 They have really good music videos too <3

    [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cYupXPf9NZ4]

    Rules Don’t Stop
    We Are Scientists 

    Don’t be alarmed, it’s not the end of the world
    If we’re breaking the rules it’s fine
    I disregard this kind of problem all the time

    It’s not as if it’s gonna kill anyone
    If there’s no victim then there’s no crime
    Just draw another if you think we’ve crossed the line

    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Rules don’t stop me
    We’ll get around it
    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Don’t stop me, don’t stop me

    Although it may seem unconventional sometimes
    Indescretion is worth a try
    If you just play along I promise we’ll be fine
    So leave your hang-ups back at the door
    When you and I are down on the floor
    Will you know what to do about it?
    (Will you know what to do about it?)

    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Rules don’t stop me
    We’ll get around it
    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Don’t stop me, don’t stop me

    It’s not as bad as they say
    If this is such a mistake
    Why does it make you so damn happy?
    This is no time to behave
    Let’s both get carried away
    If there’s a price to be paid
    It won’t stop me

    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Rules don’t stop me
    We’ll get around it
    Rules don’t stop me
    Forget about it
    Don’t stop me, don’t stop me
    They don’t stop me, they don’t stop me

  • the myers-briggs type indicator

    14 April:

    ENFP 72/12/62/39

    Extroverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Perceiving

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    27 July:

    ESFP 33/12/88/50

    Extroverted, Sensing, Feeling, Perceiving

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    It’s interesting how I’ve changed since April.

    But I think I rushed through the test whoops.

  • the word bank

    I started to keep this word bank today.

    It started yesterday when I bought an 8B pencil (which marks can only be removed by correction tape), a black book (which cannot be written on by anything short of a silver/gold marker), a silver and gold marker, a correction tape refill (which I misplaced today) and a red marker pen. Cost me about $10 but I didn’t give a crap.

    Initially I wanted to use it for a swear log which would keep track of how much I swore that day, but I figured that 1) I swore so much it would’ve been filled in a day 2) Keeping track of swear words was hardly a good reason to waste a book with black pages

    So I wrote 15 words: sebaceous, delusion, appropriate (v.), idiosyncratic, disillusion, infundibulum, matriculation, conflagration, serendipity, conviction, decadence, indiscretion, bodacious, titular and pulchritude which are all pretty cool cheem words GO FIND OUT WHAT THEY MEAN

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    Art Club was exciting because we got to prepare for the J2s’ farewell party, which was a good reason for us to meet up with the main wing and play the highly avant-garde Whacko which was ineffective as usual because no one ever bothers to remember whose names match which faces.

    Then we played Big Fish, Small Fish which didn’t really have any point other than to challenge people and their hand-eye-speech coordination. I screwed up and had to do the Can-can with a couple of people which was dumb and I was bouncing like mad.

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    Gosh I haven’t done Econs yet.

  • the casualties

    So Grace and I decided to go all trolly and set up a relationship status a la Shun Git and Marie, except with an interesting additional twist of homosexual incest since we’re related via an uncle-nephew relationship.
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    STATISTICS
    • Ego damage: 87%
    • Likes: 32
    • 7 likes on “Tan Shao Yun is in a relationship with Grace Chua”
    • 6 likes on “Grace Chua is in a relationship with Tan Shao Yun”
    • 14 likes on “ARE YOU SUGGESTING MY GF IS A STEAK”
    • 3 likes on that mushy cheesy thing that only a person bored to death and high on barbecue fumes can write
    • 2 likes on that thing about the slow clap
  • Comments: 30
    • Congratulations: 2 (sorry guys)
    • Disbelief: 5
    • Disappointment: 1
    • Self attempts to salvage the situation: 5
    • Death Threats: 0
  • Sheepish grins: 6
  • “Someone was talking behind my back” sneezes: 0
  • Self-delusions: 1
  • Total time in depression: 5 hours
  • Moments of “o-god-this-is-such-a-bad-idea”s: At least 40
  • Damaged property: Math Lecture Notes 6 (cover page cut repeatedly)
  • Power-of-Understanding Swords gained: 0
  • New friend requests: 1
    • Unrelated friend requests: 1
    • Related friend requests: 0
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  • I have no idea what this is about

    I get super envious of people sometimes (a lot of times) Like when my friends talk to people I don’t know or when they go out to gatherings and post photos of them on facebook (i’m too possessive of my friends and I want them all to myself). Or when I see other people (like kang) play the piano so easily. And everyone who lives in the west. Pasir Ris sucks. There is nothing to do here and Downtown East is donkey balls if you go there alone (which would happen all the time because EVERYONE lives in the west).

    I get majorly distraught when faced by such things too.

    I don’t even know what practical talents I have. How about being pissed half the time.

    whee the phrase 朽木不可雕 means a “leopard that cannot change its spots”. Or “old dogs can’t learn new tricks” blah.

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    Damn, I gotta learn how to blog without changing topics half the time.

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    Friday was one of the best days I had in months!

    Played tennis! Super fun except for the part where I used my wrist and it hurt like mad (still hurts a little bit now)

    Had a long chat with Galileo at the gym where he taught me how to train my BICEPS wowowiwow

    And there was an incident that involved a tennis racket, a binder clip, a few hours of being distraught and a thoughtful smile. Best described as 塞翁失马 🙂 I am such a hypocrite, haha!

  • pre-JTS thoughts

    I’ll try to sit and write a proper post without deviating, maybe that’ll help.

    I found this topic interesting (troubling?) enough to deserve a new post by itself.

    Ever since the start of the year, I never really thought of our senior class as a bonded one. They’ve always seemed distant from each other, especially at the start of the year when we met them. There are nice people in their class, but all I see are just cliques. They don’t hang around our bench at all and we don’t even talk to them. Maybe I should initiate conversation later on during JTS.

    To be frank I’d like to have a position with a little more PR in my class than Treasurer (BAD PR). Then next year I’d like to bond both classes or something. I guess Lixian and Chuan might do that next year!

    *(Some people have pointed out that I *should* be assistant CT-rep because of my vote-count during the elections. I very much like the idea, but it’s too exiguous/nickel-and-dime/petty to raise to Mdm. Madihah and appear to “usurp positions”. Besides, I’d probably suck at it)

     

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  • it is 0030 and what is this

    We got our GP papers back today. It was more pleasant of a surprise than it should’ve been; after all 26/50 is pretty good for my standards.

    But the Econs consultation today was super useful! Turns out that Econs isn’t actually as hard as it seems, there’s actually a way to answer them essays. Ms Tan said that I wasn’t particularly horrible, just that I didn’t even do the 10 mark case study question. 😐 Cheered me up a bit!

    Now my grades spell CUBEDD which is a better grade than I would’ve ever hoped to get with that pitiful amount of studying I did (thankfully study sessions with Kang and Marie are so damn effective 😀 ) Better than what my angel got anyway Sometimes I look at other people and go “ah shit my grades suck” but when I look at other people I go “wow these are really pretty slick letters” and it is all so confusing and I don’t know where I stand. I probably am one of the bottom few in class yet again.

    And I just watched the Dead Island trailer and I feel miserable someone kill me now 🙁

    OH AND I HATE BEING THE TREASURER. I absolutely suck at chasing people down for stuff because I either can’t be bothered or I get things wrong or I don’t want to offend people.

    I learnt what smegma meant: some kind of excrement under a man’s foreskin. Not my fault that it was in the notes in GP. And pulchritude which means beauty. I’m on my way to an A for GP. (sarcasm)

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    Oh Marie and Kang’s mech design got into Top 10 and my ugly name is placed all Verdana, bold and blue on the left. Kang wins 10,000 maple points because Marie was too humble to accept it aww. $10 SGD LOL

    http://maple.asiasoftsea.com/news_events/view/top_10_design_your_own_mechanic_submissions/

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    I’ve this friend who’s a dick to everyone. Dramatises everything he says. Even when I’m trying to tell him how he can change he just ignores whatever I just said and goes on long monologues worthy of historians fond of the Middle Ages. In fact, he can just go decapitate himself with his razor-sharp wit. (I italicised that phrase because I was being sarcastic)

    They say he has a behavioral problem that he cannot help but I could also say that I’m prone to punching pricks in the face (or alternatively kneeing pricks in the face). I’d recommend him to be a writer for Channel 8 soaps; noone would notice a difference.

    After 2 years of tolerance to his shitty behaviour, I think it’s safe to give up on him. What an incorrigible, selfish asshole.

    Fine. One more chance.

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    Pfft nights now feel like the empty pauses between songs. I wish I had an older sister to talk to. Because girls are awesome. I don’t mean like in Jon Lajoe’s “Show Me Your Genitals”. Now I sound like a desperate idiot. I DON’T CARE I’VE BEEN ISOLATED IN A SCHOOL FOR 4 YEARS WITH GUYS GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK. I’M NOT EVEN HOMOSEXUAL.

    You can’t even have a chat with guys without being labelled a bloody closet-dweller.

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    I have a feeling people will read this during class and everyone will go laugh at it. 🙁

    TOPIC CHANGE

    We’re having tennis tomorrow! Boy, this is going to be bloody fun. Can’t wait for tomorrow night too!