the egoist

I’ve had this strange of bout of depression lately. I feel… unwanted. I know this is not the case but sigh I wish people would treat me with as much respect as I respect them.

Not that anyone treats me without respect, but I really do want someone to make me feel as if I’m important enough, that someone wants me to exist or else he/she would be very sad because I didn’t exist.

I want a friend who would ask me out (;_;) and would consult me for HTH talks and would listen and laugh to whatever I have to say, maybe go spastic around and have a lot of fun with and would go for long walks around the CBD with me. We would take turns to talk and maybe call each other cunts for the fun of it and playfully punch each other on the forearm and meet up often and sit in secluded places while hugging our knees and rocking back and forth discussing and gossiping and laughing and taking all the time in the world.

I WANT A CLOSE UNDERSTANDING SIMILAR-INTERESTED NON-BESOTTED RESPECTFUL CARING CALM WILLING-TO-LISTEN FUN FANTASTIC MOTIVATIONAL HUMBLE FRIEND THAT’S ALL. MY GOD IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR. (IF YOU’RE A GIRL ALL THE BETTER I’M SO DESPERATE 🙁 )

I want people to read my blog but I’m too humble (how ironic) to go promote it. I don’t even know who reads this any more blah.

THAT WAS A SHORT-LIVED RANT OF THE HIDDEN, VIRTUALLY NON-EXISTENT EGO OF MINE

I’m relieved that I’m not the sole cause for that problem. I did despair about it for a week, but I’m relieved that now a few of us share the blame. Warped thinking, I know! I should be less susceptible to guilt-tripping blah.

Haha, how can toilet paper orientation be such an important topic to deserve a Wikipedia article? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Toilet_paper_orientation

Always expect the best from your friends, and never assume the worst. Rest assured that a good friend always has your best interests at heart.

This quote… was heartwarming.

Even if it was from a show about ponies haha.